So much emotions flowed thr my mind today.
I ought to record this down.
I have to remember this powerful moment.
Few days ago, because of a silly chick flick i watched,
I immersed myself into the fairytale mood.
Asking myself if I would ever be in one.
Just as I was still in that silly thought of mine,
my friend told me about her breakup,
and how shitty she feels.
crying, not eating, feel like dying and all...
I thought,
Is the assumed fairytale that worthwhile after all?
An hour later,
I went with lunch,
and was told that this guy from sg,
jumped into oncoming train and ended his life.
A honours psychology student,
great in sports,
a wonderful son i suppose..
Why take life so lightly,
or maybe i didnt understand what happened,
or rather, yea, I dont even know him
but I wished I could tell him,
I could be a friend for him.
I could be his listening ear.
Sigh.
Then I went on facebook,
and saw my friend's wedding pictures.
I looked and thought,
I wished I'm like her too.
Having a partner for life.
I paused.
*wake up*
I'm afraid of daydreaming and falling into my own stupid traps.
I seen so much going on in W's life.
I dun wanna walk that path..
But I shall not worry.
Lfe's now semed to be so much more motivating.
I trust in God,
I live by faith and not sight.
Cos I know He will provide.
I serve Him, and
I chase after my dreams,
with no fear,
knowing He will be here.
Very fueled. Very powerful.
What are your passions?
What are your deepest yearnings?
If you could do absolutely anything in the world,
what is it that you would do?
Your heart knows the answers
to these questions.
It is whispering to you right now
this very moment
So listen to it and follow it.
It will always be your best guide in life.
Never fall into ur self-made traps.
I heard that voice in me loud and clear.
Im running towards it.
random post (yet again)
these are some random pics which I have been too lazy to upload.
The below is hailstorm pic which i took. aka raining iceballs from the sky,
if Missy J iss here. she will definitely be WOWed.
The kids all yelled "ICE AGE 3!!"
And Wendy says " must show Missy J the pics"
And oh, its joshua's birthday yesterday. Hes so happy.
and back to our all time fav: Mr Jacob Lee
oh, and i love dressing him up
He is just SO adorable.
The below is hailstorm pic which i took. aka raining iceballs from the sky,
if Missy J iss here. she will definitely be WOWed.
The kids all yelled "ICE AGE 3!!"
And Wendy says " must show Missy J the pics"
And oh, its joshua's birthday yesterday. Hes so happy.
and back to our all time fav: Mr Jacob Lee
oh, and i love dressing him up
He is just SO adorable.
wow, its end of august
Im sitting in the middle of bush court,
on the grass,
enjoying the smell of murdoch,
enjoying the awesome weather,
feeling blessed.
feeling VERY grateful.
someone fast-tuned the clock. definitely.
good times passed so quick,
im at crossroad again.
6 mths gonna end so quick.
its just
- 6 periods to deal with (ha. yucks i know, but hey, its cindy and her weird philosophy.)
- 6 mobile recharges to do.
- 6 whatevers.
But yet, so many great things happened.
I realised I know myself better than before..
I finally have the courage to do what I really wanna do
But there're so many decisions awaiting for me:
- post grad? --> car?
- here or there?
I ask: isnt this my dream? why am i holding back?
Im glad this all happened.
I think God has His plans for me.
Everything falls into place,
making me realise that its better to make decisions now,
then to suffer or make people suffer.
This post is so much of a mess,
thoughts here and there,
yea,
that reflects the current state of my mind.
im sorting things out with myself.
soon. very soon.
one step at a time.
on the grass,
enjoying the smell of murdoch,
enjoying the awesome weather,
feeling blessed.
feeling VERY grateful.
someone fast-tuned the clock. definitely.
good times passed so quick,
im at crossroad again.
6 mths gonna end so quick.
its just
- 6 periods to deal with (ha. yucks i know, but hey, its cindy and her weird philosophy.)
- 6 mobile recharges to do.
- 6 whatevers.
But yet, so many great things happened.
I realised I know myself better than before..
I finally have the courage to do what I really wanna do
But there're so many decisions awaiting for me:
- post grad? --> car?
- here or there?
I ask: isnt this my dream? why am i holding back?
Im glad this all happened.
I think God has His plans for me.
Everything falls into place,
making me realise that its better to make decisions now,
then to suffer or make people suffer.
This post is so much of a mess,
thoughts here and there,
yea,
that reflects the current state of my mind.
im sorting things out with myself.
soon. very soon.
one step at a time.
friends are the family we choose for ourselves.
Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer in Cleveland,
Ohio.
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It
is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to
90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and
parents will.
Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay cheque.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. Its OK to let your children see you cry..
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all
about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God
never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is
up to you
and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for
an answer.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will
this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did
or didn't
do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd
grab ours
back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
Remember, friends are the family we choose for ourselves.
Ohio.
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It
is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to
90 in August, so here is the column once more:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and
parents will.
Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay cheque.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. Its OK to let your children see you cry..
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all
about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God
never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is
up to you
and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for
an answer.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will
this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did
or didn't
do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd
grab ours
back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
Remember, friends are the family we choose for ourselves.
bring it on!
Busy week indeed,
school started, and wow,im amazed.
first of all, school is packed,
MU is the biggest uni (in WA) in terms of space area,
but still, everyone's everywhere
My first class was monday 9.30,
and I drove to class! yea, i got my aussie licence.
My kind cousin gave me the keys..
school's just a str road down, yup, so its easy. ha.
And at 9.00am, library's already packed,
people of different color (hair, skin, everything).
People on skateboards, (yes, they skate in school, cool.)
People on bikes,
People smoking in open, (yup, u an smoke anywhere here, as long as its not in a room)
People sitting on the grass (everywhere, reading, eating, smoking, talking)
And I told myself: "This is it, i'm gonna make full use of every min here."
The sky, the breeze, the sun, the chill, the grass
I love it all.
Lecture was good, lecturer's very good too.
But the best part was the tutorial.
Im the only asian in the class.
And obviously, i stood out from the rest.
Apparently, the tutor knows everyone in the class, cos its 3rd year class already.
So he named me as "the new kid"
He talked about assignments and its hell of work.
so, one blondie raised her hands and said,
"You made it sound like u r taking over our social life. I dont agree with it."
wow. brave. they give opinons bravely, and believe in their rights.
The discussions in class were intense,
and those blondies who looked like cheerleaders,
hmmm.. not bimbotic at all!!
very smart, talk sense, and very brave. ha.
I love such sessions, where we can discuss productively,
learnt alot from them, shared different experience.
But I have lots to learn, gotta speak up more..
Im glad that Clarissa has good sart since young in school.
These are the people who will create impact, who will impress,
and most importantly, they are the ones who will be able
to speak up for what they believe in.
I truly felt that people from SG, have to really buck up on this.
We have to buck up our social skills, and general knowledge.
Take care everyone, be positive, be humble, be grateful.
"Everyday is a learning day, and here I am like a sponge, absorbing everything I can, looking at everything through an unbiased pair of eyes"
school started, and wow,im amazed.
first of all, school is packed,
MU is the biggest uni (in WA) in terms of space area,
but still, everyone's everywhere
My first class was monday 9.30,
and I drove to class! yea, i got my aussie licence.
My kind cousin gave me the keys..
school's just a str road down, yup, so its easy. ha.
And at 9.00am, library's already packed,
people of different color (hair, skin, everything).
People on skateboards, (yes, they skate in school, cool.)
People on bikes,
People smoking in open, (yup, u an smoke anywhere here, as long as its not in a room)
People sitting on the grass (everywhere, reading, eating, smoking, talking)
And I told myself: "This is it, i'm gonna make full use of every min here."
The sky, the breeze, the sun, the chill, the grass
I love it all.
Lecture was good, lecturer's very good too.
But the best part was the tutorial.
Im the only asian in the class.
And obviously, i stood out from the rest.
Apparently, the tutor knows everyone in the class, cos its 3rd year class already.
So he named me as "the new kid"
He talked about assignments and its hell of work.
so, one blondie raised her hands and said,
"You made it sound like u r taking over our social life. I dont agree with it."
wow. brave. they give opinons bravely, and believe in their rights.
The discussions in class were intense,
and those blondies who looked like cheerleaders,
hmmm.. not bimbotic at all!!
very smart, talk sense, and very brave. ha.
I love such sessions, where we can discuss productively,
learnt alot from them, shared different experience.
But I have lots to learn, gotta speak up more..
Im glad that Clarissa has good sart since young in school.
These are the people who will create impact, who will impress,
and most importantly, they are the ones who will be able
to speak up for what they believe in.
I truly felt that people from SG, have to really buck up on this.
We have to buck up our social skills, and general knowledge.
Take care everyone, be positive, be humble, be grateful.
"Everyday is a learning day, and here I am like a sponge, absorbing everything I can, looking at everything through an unbiased pair of eyes"
end of july update
wow, its end of july already! =(
time just zoomed away...
lots of improvements in life,
1. Jacob knows how to call aunty cindy.
awwww... this really proves the fact that I have really spent a lot of time with him, and changed countless diapers for him. LOL.
2. attended church, and cellgroups.
yup! good bunch of people from cellgrp, service is gd too..
3. met heaps of people, made heaps of friends. (from africa to usa, to germany, and of course malaysians, they r just every where- cant run from them eh.. and fellow singaporeans too.)
4. walked ard the estate, doing jogs soon, lol. SOON.
5. bumming ard in school, and friend's flats, student life, how I lurve it.
6. less smsing, less internet = more sleep, more reading, more healthier lifestyle
haven been to city for a week, tml's friday, gotta hang out in the city, and do some window shopping.. hahahha...
haven been taking pics for quite a while, cos i cant find my camera. =s
will be taking pics soon!
take care people. miss u people lots. =)
Quote of the week from Caleb:
"Aunty Cindy should work at Big W, cos she likes to read the Big W book alot."
oh, he found out my love for catalogue magazines. =)
time just zoomed away...
lots of improvements in life,
1. Jacob knows how to call aunty cindy.
awwww... this really proves the fact that I have really spent a lot of time with him, and changed countless diapers for him. LOL.
2. attended church, and cellgroups.
yup! good bunch of people from cellgrp, service is gd too..
3. met heaps of people, made heaps of friends. (from africa to usa, to germany, and of course malaysians, they r just every where- cant run from them eh.. and fellow singaporeans too.)
4. walked ard the estate, doing jogs soon, lol. SOON.
5. bumming ard in school, and friend's flats, student life, how I lurve it.
6. less smsing, less internet = more sleep, more reading, more healthier lifestyle
haven been to city for a week, tml's friday, gotta hang out in the city, and do some window shopping.. hahahha...
haven been taking pics for quite a while, cos i cant find my camera. =s
will be taking pics soon!
take care people. miss u people lots. =)
Quote of the week from Caleb:
"Aunty Cindy should work at Big W, cos she likes to read the Big W book alot."
oh, he found out my love for catalogue magazines. =)
TGIF
Ha.. im at the Riverton Library, internet is free here for 1hr
while clarissa is attending her art class at the nearby art centre.
I think its easy money for the school. LOL.
She made that easy-looking wind mobile, and the class is 15 bucks.
Her class started at 9.45, 2 hour class,
and I have to buy her lunch, cos Joe has no time to make her lunchbox.
Well, its FAST FOOD era. =p
Well.. I had mine too.. its cheap. and free refills.
I'm kinda used to the lifestyle here already.
Lifestyle includes:
1. Listening to THE COUPLE's complains about everything
2. Listening to Kids' complains about EVERY SINGLE THING. (esp Caleb.)
3. The evil cold weather
4. The mad rush to catch buses/time on time
5. The heartless short daytime
6. The starting of friendless stage in life.
7. The love for reading (library here is free and u can borrow up to 10 books for 3 weeks!! not a problem for me at all)
8. Appreciating free internet or ANY source of internet.
9. VEGEMITE!!
10. and lots more. everyday is a new learning day.
Caleb and clarissa feel ill for 2 days,
And yes, the house was so peaceful. =p
yup, thats sicky Clarissa with her sticky pad on.
Caleb yelled so loudly when the cold sticky pad was placed on him,
and scared little Jacob,
I think neighbours must have thought that theres child abuse going on.
But well, good peaceful times at home are rare.
compare to this pic of Clarissa below:
yup. early in the morning, Im again awaken by the non-stop yaking and the non-stop yelling of the kids.
I guess I'll never be late for school with such powerful alarm clocks.
Recap of past happenings.
1. Train ride - Ferris wheel ride- Boat ride- Bus ride
Yes, with the kids. (4 kids on public transport is MADNESS)
They are like fresh release from jail, seeing the city for the first time.
Gosh. scary but yea, fun.
I have to declare Caleb as a loud monster with tiny heart.
He looks as if hes the bravest but hes not.
Hes so scared on the ferris wheel,
keep yelling: "The ferris wheel is TOO BIG for me!!"
Cant even concentrate on taking pics. Keep yelling. (try to spot him, in the pic)
But Little Ja-Ja is enjoying every moment. Hahaha.. as usual.
The "china mountain tortise" family out for train ride! hahahaha...
Alrighty, i have 15 mins left to update other stuff..
Take care all of u.
Miss u people lots.
Cheers.
while clarissa is attending her art class at the nearby art centre.
I think its easy money for the school. LOL.
She made that easy-looking wind mobile, and the class is 15 bucks.
Her class started at 9.45, 2 hour class,
and I have to buy her lunch, cos Joe has no time to make her lunchbox.
Well, its FAST FOOD era. =p
Well.. I had mine too.. its cheap. and free refills.
I'm kinda used to the lifestyle here already.
Lifestyle includes:
1. Listening to THE COUPLE's complains about everything
2. Listening to Kids' complains about EVERY SINGLE THING. (esp Caleb.)
3. The evil cold weather
4. The mad rush to catch buses/time on time
5. The heartless short daytime
6. The starting of friendless stage in life.
7. The love for reading (library here is free and u can borrow up to 10 books for 3 weeks!! not a problem for me at all)
8. Appreciating free internet or ANY source of internet.
9. VEGEMITE!!
10. and lots more. everyday is a new learning day.
Caleb and clarissa feel ill for 2 days,
And yes, the house was so peaceful. =p
yup, thats sicky Clarissa with her sticky pad on.
Caleb yelled so loudly when the cold sticky pad was placed on him,
and scared little Jacob,
I think neighbours must have thought that theres child abuse going on.
But well, good peaceful times at home are rare.
compare to this pic of Clarissa below:
yup. early in the morning, Im again awaken by the non-stop yaking and the non-stop yelling of the kids.
I guess I'll never be late for school with such powerful alarm clocks.
Recap of past happenings.
1. Train ride - Ferris wheel ride- Boat ride- Bus ride
Yes, with the kids. (4 kids on public transport is MADNESS)
They are like fresh release from jail, seeing the city for the first time.
Gosh. scary but yea, fun.
I have to declare Caleb as a loud monster with tiny heart.
He looks as if hes the bravest but hes not.
Hes so scared on the ferris wheel,
keep yelling: "The ferris wheel is TOO BIG for me!!"
Cant even concentrate on taking pics. Keep yelling. (try to spot him, in the pic)
But Little Ja-Ja is enjoying every moment. Hahaha.. as usual.
The "china mountain tortise" family out for train ride! hahahaha...
Alrighty, i have 15 mins left to update other stuff..
Take care all of u.
Miss u people lots.
Cheers.
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